How to Remember Who You Really Are…. the point in midlife where your life makes sense to everyone—but you.
This experience is more common than most women realize—especially in midlife, when the roles you’ve carried begin to loosen and something deeper asks for your attention. -Z
You played by the rules. You showed up and did what was asked of you. You’ve built something tangible—something that reflects years of responsibility, care, and effort. And yet, somewhere beneath all of that, there is a quiet but persistent awareness that something essential has shifted.
It’s not loud or dramatic. It doesn’t announce itself as a crisis.
It’s more subtle than that—you begin to recognize it in the moments where you feel strangely removed from your own life… when what once felt meaningful now falls flat… when it’s disorienting to realize you’re present, but you don’t quite feel like yourself anymore.
And what makes this even harder to understand is that nothing is obviously wrong.
Which leads to a deeper, more unsettling question:
If everything in my life looks “right,” why does it feel so wrong?
This is the space where many women begin to search for answers—often externally at first, trying to fix, adjust, or reconfigure the life they’ve already built. But what if this feeling isn’t asking you to change your life… but to remember yourself within it?
What if the disconnect you’re experiencing isn’t a sign that something has gone wrong—
but an indication that a deeper part of you longs to be recognized?
This is where the process of remembering begins.
And it begins with a question that has the power to alter the trajectory of your life—or quietly confirm the one you’re already living:
Do you want to do different things… or do things differently?
Remembering Who You Are (When You Feel Disconnected From Yourself)
What does it actually mean to “remember who you are”? It’s not conceptual—but in lived, grounded ways that begin to shift how you experience your life.Remembering isn’t about going back in time or recovering a past version of yourself. It isn’t about reinventing your personality or searching for a better identity to step into.
It’s a search for truth—the real you.
You begin to see how you’ve adapted to roles, and how much of your life has been shaped by others’ narratives, beliefs, and expectations. And with that comes a realization: the identity you’ve built may no longer reflect who you truly are.
This can feel disorienting—especially in midlife, when so much of your life has been shaped by responsibility and unquestioned obligations that simply became “who you are.” So, remembering is the moment you begin to sense that there is a part of you untouched by all of it. The part of you that isn’t defined by roles, achievements, or the version of yourself you’ve learned to present to the world.
Some call this the soul. Others experience it as intuition, gut instinct or Divine inner knowing. It doesn’t matter what you call it, it needs to be listened to and followed. Once this voice grows clearer (listening to it is a practice trust me) it becomes harder to ignore where you’re out of alignment; your performing, saying yes when you mean no, and doing what you’ve always done—but now it feels icky!
This is why remembering is the first step. Not because it immediately changes your life—but because it changes your relationship to it.
My Experience With Remembering
My remembering wasn’t graceful. Nor was it a slow unfolding. There was no idyllic ocean setting or walking through a field of wildflowers. Although, that would have been lovely, but that’s not how I came into remembering. Mine was like a tsunami-like a losing game of Jenga, when you see the blocks come tumbling down but you have no way of stopping them or controlling where they land.
For me, my new reality started with a jolt. It felt like I was a visitor in my own life. Very uncomfortable—like I didn’t belong anymore. It happened in New York City, standing on stage, accepting a platinum award, a pivitol moment that would change my stature in the travel industry. Or so I thought. Everything looked picture-perfect. I was traveling the world, representing luxury resorts, bespoke inns, and often-overlooked travel destinations. I kept telling myself, “Nina, you’ve finally arrived.”
And if you had met me then, you would’ve seen a hardworking woman who had it all together. Designer this and that, the windowed office, slipping in and out of cities around the states and afar. For the most part… I created it. Thinking this is my dream life…until it was’n’t
Shape-Shifting Into Someone I Wasn’t
What you wouldn’t have seen is the years of shape-shifting and fitting myself into “corporate career woman box” you saw on stage that night. I morphed myself into the person who could sit at the table and nod along—even when something in me quietly said, this is so wrong.
Have you ever smiled in agreement while thinking to yourself, what the F is wrong with me? This isn’t me! And the problem wasn’t that I did it once—I did it so often, it started to feel normal.
What I didn’t realize then was that a part of me—my true self—was slipping away, being replaced by a character I didn’t even identify with. I see it now as identity disruption, because little by little, you take on this whole new identity that isn’t really yours.
That night in New York, I was pushing that identity to the brink—and my soul was also encouraging me to wake up and stop ignoring Her.
The Question That Changed Everything
Years of “tiny white lies”—ignoring my identity, relying on external approval instead of my own inner authority—came to a head with one simple question: Nina, is this what you really want?
I was standing on that stage, award in hand, thinking, you’ve finally arrived. Yet in the same moment, something deeper whispered again: Is this what you really want? And I answered—immediately, clearly, and without hesitation: No. That was the moment everything shifted. It wasn’t visible yet, but internally I felt the wobble. I didn’t know what was ahead, but I could feel something new was rising. This was no longer about doing things differently—it was about doing different things.
The Aftermath of Remembering
That night ignited what I now call my tsunami– the reckoning moment, which helped me recognize how far I had strayed from my true self. In the months that followed, I began to observe my experiences with greater clarity.
Why do I continue to say yes, and play a role that didn’t feel good? I had to sit in that and see it for the false belief that it was. This is the shadow work that has to happen so you can embrace the truth—your true self—the totality of you. You can’t expect to change without seeing and letting go of the layers that keep you trapped.
Heres what my tsunami taught me, when you begin to remember your true self, you can’t hide behind the mask anymore. It makes pretending nearly impossible. Remembering the totality of who you are is the first step toward living in alignment with your truth—what actually matters to you, regardless of circumstances. This isn’t easy. But honestly, now that I’ve navigated my own personal tsunami, I would rather spend the rest of my life navigating my truth than be comfortably disconnected from it. I was sick of feeling like a hollow shell walking through life numb—while a low hum of anxiety haunted me daily.
Remember, the truth never seeks approval. It’s already in its fullest knowing.
When Your Life No Longer Feels Like You
As I began navigating through my tsunami, I did what most of us do I look externally for answers and never landed on a place that felt true to me. That’s when Spiritual Personality Typing℠ was born, and with it came the REAL framework— R-remembering is the first step — of how I guide and teach women in transition to reconnect with their inner voice. When I was navigating my tsunami, the last thing I needed was another wellness tip, a new motivational high or to follow another guru. I didn’t find transformation, what I really needed was to do different things so I could fully understand myself to the very core of my soul. For me it was a rebuilding of self.
Because when you say no to a life that no longer fits… you don’t give it a makeover—you rebuild it.
The Myth of the “Ah-Ha” Moment
You’d think that awards night would’ve anchored me deeper into my success. It didn’t. In fact, it had the opposite effect. It pulled me inward.
I had built a strong relationship with my ego—achievement, external authority, identity, status, and recognition. But I had not committed to learning about my soul. Intellectually, I got it—hell, my mom used to talk to her transitioned family members, so I understood that we have a direct pipeline to the otherside.
What I hadn’t committed to was the deep shadow work that brings wisdom and truth. Now that I look back, I see where my spirit—my soul self—had intervened and kept dragging me to my meant to be, path. And I truly believe my soul was weary as I hit midlife, so this was a choice point: either get on board with a soul-fed life, or live the rest of my life ego-led.
I choose a soul-fed life led by a persistent desire to understand myself on a much deeper level which had be start questioning everything:
- Old beliefs and values
- My work, relationships, and marriage
- How I wanted to show up in the world—and what truly matters
There was no big, dramatic ah-ha moment. It was a series of experiences—and observing myself in those moments—to realize what felt meaningful… and what didn’t.
That pinnacle awards night felt flat, my joy of travel was waning, and my relationships felt superficial. And here’s the truth no one tells you: it’s rarely just one moment that wakes you up. It’s a series of nudges, whispers, and internal eye-rolls that eventually become impossible to ignore.
Common Triggers That Bring About A New Awakening
Remembering doesn’t usually begin in stillness, it typically begins in disruption. The moments that surprise as you being to wake-up to the life you’ve been living and it no longer holds in the same way, and something deeper begins to ask for your attention. That something deeper is the voice of your soul, which is guiding you into an expanded and evolved version of yourself.
For many women these “wake-up” moments typically arise:
- At the end of a relationship—whether through separation, divorce, or a quiet emotional disconnection that can no longer be ignored
- Major life transitions—career shifts, an empty nest, or the realization that a role you’ve carried no longer fits
- Grief and loss—the passing of a loved one, or even the loss of a version of life you once believed in
- Burnout, anxiety, or a persistent sense of exhaustion—when the way you’ve been living becomes unsustainable
- A deeper internal reckoning—what’s often described as a “dark night of the soul,” where everything feels uncertain, but also undeniably real
Sometimes, it’s less dramatic.
- During a conversation.
- In moments of clarity
- A quiet, internal voice that keeps on repeating “I can’t keep doing this”.
However it begins for you, the patterns are consistent: what once felt stable starts to wobble, feels limiting, and unfulfilling. And while it’s easier to give it a quick fix, work harder to regain control, or keep on pretending it really doesn’t matter. These moments are sparking positive disruption—your soul telling you to embrace the unknown and look in a new direction if you want your new beginning to unfold.
10 Questions to Help You Remember Yourself
These questions align with the ideology of doing different things. They are not surface-level questions, a template or a quiz that helps you superficially identify topical layers of oneself. These questions, when given the time and nurturing needed will shift something internally in an effort to help you remember your truth; the WHO of who you really are.
Grab a pen and paper and sit with these:
- Who am I beyond my roles, labels, and past stories?
- What beliefs am I ready to question?
- Which emotions do I avoid—and what are they trying to teach me?
- Where am I living on autopilot… avoiding my truth?
- What do I desire right now?
- What patterns keep repeating in my life?
- What am I afraid would change if I fully became myself?
- What parts of me need compassion instead of criticism?
- What feels aligned—even if it’s uncomfortable?
- If I trusted myself completely, what would I do differently today?
You Can’t Bypass Yourself
My approach to spirituality is different. Here’s why.
You’ve probably been told to go beyond your thoughts and emotions to transform. You can’t, that’s just not how this works.
You are a spiritual being having a human experience—which means your thoughts and emotions aren’t obstacles…They’re doorways your soul wants to walk through. Your soul doesn’t want to bypass your humanity. It wants to fully embody it. This is where wisdom lives…within you.
What’s required is integration—owning all of it: the light, the shadow, the messy middle—which brings about you the totality of who you are.
5 Ways to Reconnect With Yourself When You Feel Disconnected
These are ongoing exercises that I have incorporated into my daily life. They keep me in step with soul-fed living, rather than relying on an ego-fed lifestyle. My wish is that they benefit you as well.
1. Observe Your Thoughts
Notice what’s actually running through your mind in any given moment.
Ask: Is this actually my thought?
Not everything you think belongs to you. Some of it was inherited. Some absorbed. Some never questioned.
So ask yourself: Does this feel true… or just familiar?
Keep a journal of these exercises, because you’ll begin to see repetitive behaviors you’ve inherited that aren’t yours to keep.
2. Feel It Instead of Fixing It
The next time an emotion rises—pause.
Ask: Where do I feel this in my body? Let it be there.
Then ask: What is this trying to show me?
Your emotions aren’t in the way.
They are the way.
3. Explore Aspects of Yourself You Avoid
We all have parts we’d rather ignore. Instead of pushing them under the rug, get curious.
Ask:
Why are you here?
What are you trying to protect me from?
That egoic, shadow part of you isn’t random. It’s protective. And it has something to say. So listen.
4. Build Self-Trust
Keep one small promise to yourself each day.
Ask: Can I trust myself to follow through?
Start small—and be consistent. Is it a 10 minute walk, an honest answer, a promise to self
When you don’t follow through, don’t judge it.
Get curious: Why did I override myself?
Self-trust is built when you choose to honor yourself.
5. Return to Your Inner Authority
Before seeking advice—pause.
Ask: What do I think?
What feels true for me?
Sit with your answer first.
You can receive guidance without abandoning your own voice.
Journal Prompt
Write this without an immediate need for an answer: What remains true about me, no matter the circumstances?
Next Steps and Additional Resources
If you are just diving in you may want to:
- Watch Chapter Four the companion video on YouTube
- Book a 1:1 session here to clarify your sacred, self-identity and step into the world of new possibilities
- Explore my debut book Unpack Your Personality. Grab it On Amazon
This work is not about becoming someone new, it’s remembering your true self–letting the soul animate your personality to come into union with the totality of your truth.
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Who Is Nina Zapala?
I’ve navigated my own midlife tsunami — that overwhelming season when everything you thought defined you starts to wash away, and the world seems to look right past you. But I’ve learned that midlife doesn’t have to mean invisibility, fighting to stay relevant, or feeling marginalized. I created a new way through this powerful chapter with a sacred self-identity paradigm called Spiritual Personality Typing℠— a framework I developed to make sense of my own tsunami that has brought me more joy, soulful self-discovery, and intentional living. Now, I help women design lives that are entirely their own — untethered from society’s expectations and rich with new beginnings, confidence, and freedom.
